At the moment I am laying in bed listening to CTRL by SZA and I couldn’t help but reflect on this past year. As every year truly is, it has been a rollercoaster of emotions and experiences. I have made mistakes, lost friends, dealt with extremely low points, but also, I have found love of all kinds, worked hard, opened up doors for myself, and so much more.
When a new year starts we all write out a list of resolutions. Goals to make this year better than the next. Through all of the hustle and bustle we lose sight of those goals. I do believe that it is important to set these types of goals for ourselves. It’s something that pushes us to do better. To be better. Even though not all of our goals may be accomplished we will always find away for the most important one to prevail. I am writing this post because I personally want to reflect on my shortcomings and the accomplishments I’ve had this year.
Originally I wanted 2018 to be a year focused on work. I wanted to do better in my current career as well as move my side business forward. There were times where I focused on one more than the other or half-assed on both. Even though I believe that I could have done more, I did step out of my comfort zone tremendously in this arena. I networked my ass off, went to events, upped my social media game, and more. Doing this presented me with a plethora of new opportunities for this upcoming year which I’m extremely grateful for. It’s motivated me to keep focused. I’ve pinpointed my weaknesses and now know where to put my energy into.
I do consider myself a healthy person physically and mentally. A goal of mine was to continue that mindset but to better my practice. (There is always room for improvement) If I said that I worked out every day in 2018 or never ate any junk food, I’d be lying. This part of my journey taught me to be realistic with myself. There are days that you don’t want to go to the gym but you push through and that will possibly turn into one of your best workouts of the week. There are also days where you’re physically and mentally drained and it’s a good idea to take a day for yourself. Being honest and aware of your needs is everything. I may not be an Instagram fitness model with a six-pack or a wellness guru who meditates every day and only eats organic. I am a healthy, self-aware, 20-something who listens to her body, feeds her mind, and lives a fulfilling life. That’s all we truly want right?
Lastly, I wanted to remain present and just live in the moment. I made sure to take time off of social media, spent time with friends, documented things in my journal, tried to focus on what was in front of me rather than behind me. I developed a mantra this year. If you want to do it, do it. It was very similar to The Year of Yes. Living by this for the past year was truly an eye-opener. It pushed me to do things I wouldn’t usually do because I was hesitant or over thinking it. Now, it truly had its blissful moments but it also had low moments. Mistakes I had to learn from. I was forced to realize that having everything you want comes with consequences. I can honestly say that it taught me so many life lessons. Would I do another year of it? Probably not. I’m still trying to find something that works for me.
So as this year comes to an end, sit back and reflect on your shortcomings this year. What did you learn from them? How are you going to apply this lesson in this upcoming year? Starting a new year can be more than just a restart for you. It can be a way to acknowledge your past mistakes and accomplishments so you can move forward equipped for anything that’s thrown at you.
Good luck to you. I hope you have the year you deserve.
Happy Holidays & Happy New Year.
See ya in 2019!
Sending positive vibes your way.